back to blogging once again after so longggg

Recently my bro made one big decision that return the peace to our family.
Divorce..

Divorce isn't nice but to our family it seems to be a good news.
My bro feel less stressful.
I feel at peace.
My parents are happier.
My family are more loving than before.
I feel protected. I feel more loves than before.

I couldn't say how much i hate that woman. But i feel relieve that i don't have to face her anyhow.
Past one year plus i felt so down and stressful by her presence at our house.
waited so long for this peace.

And yes. My bro, you deserve someone better.

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An incident make me realise who i been believing does not deserve my trust.
Why did you do that? What do you gain..
Maybe sometimes i pretend not to know. It doesn't means i'm a fool...
Why make up stories that did not happen at all.
When everyone are thinking hard and worried what had they done wrongly, but you're there laughing and making a fool of us. It doesn't feel great.

Not everybody likes you

The reality fact is that. If there are people who likes you. Then there will also be people who DISLIKE you.

Somebody just couldn't understand this fact.

Someone said this few days ago "i need the enthusiasm from people around me. They must be passionate when they are around me. I dislike people being cold to me".
Which i think she meant she needed attention every minute every second?

Could you stop being self-centered and attention seeking. Its making people around unhappy.
You don't even respect and pay attention to people. Yet you want so many attentions from people.
There's a limit you should go to.

But sometime this world is just unfair.
people like this tend to get really lots of attention, care and concern...

Sometime we remain silence just to endure people with such attitude.
Sometime we make a fuss is because we want to be heard and that we're at limit of endurance!

where do i go....

helping my fren advertise

Looking for Permanent part-time Medic(s)

-Singaporeans/ PRs living here only. 18 years old and above.

-Be willing to work in an outdoor environment(events,home nursing) from time to time.

-Must posses either of the following practicing certificate:
1.Standard First Aid
2.Advanced First Aid
3.Basic Cardio Life Support (BCLS)
4.NITEC/Diploma/Degree in Nursing

-Bilingual. Able to speak English.

-Able to commit at least 2-3 months.

Interested candidates can forward your resume to elainehwa@live.com.sg

Note: applicants on social visit/ tourist passes (ie. Filipinos/ Myanmarese) will not be entertained at all.


source: http://singapore.gumtree.sg/c-Jobs-healthcare-nursing-Permanent-part-time-Medic-s-W0QQAdIdZ311216963

so am i to forget wadeva nasty comments you say??

it happens before. And it happens again!
You, saying things without thinking consequences.
saying thing without thoughts of people's feelings.
speaking things out loud without going thru ur brain.

This time it was the worst!
you said thing as you like.
you said all the nasty thing at your own wish.
And after all those troubles you cause,
you ask to forget everything.
Why? to get people stop scolding you for being nasty?
powerfulness of words. this is wad you cause.
And this is wad you should learn.
Tho i'm not sure u will learn it.

Happy birthday to me

finding time to write down my feelings...

my thoughts are in a mess right now.
everytime finding time to write down some feelings..
but everytime ending up backspacing the whole text..
but i guess i really need a space to voice some thoughts.

it doesn't feel great having someone in your life that make you feel irritated, annoying, sad, angry, demoralise and such.. almost everyday in your life.
My nemesis! damn you..
I had to cry so often thanks to all your comments,
sometime i just don't understand! And it jus isn't right!
Why do the one enduring your nonsense gets all the scolding, reprimanding. While you get so much care and concern no matter how bad ur stubbornness gets!?

feeling more and more useless as more tears flows...

long chat

today had a nice nice nice chat with some friends.
chat about habits, privacy, future, career and such.
Glad to have a further understanding of a friend.. :)

I enjoy today long chat. Though i spend the whole day just chatting and stoning infront of my laptop. :P

But the night fall still makes me kind of emotional and lost...

Pouring out

Tonight I feel somehow relax after weeks of stress. I can say maybe it's bcux I pour out almost all unhappiness to friends. By SMS by msg by meeting face to face.
And a new insight gained thru meetups.

Lost souls found each other and gave each other comfort and courage.

Tho my nemesis still exist... Haa

you

I'm not sure why you do that everytime.
I always wonder whats in your mind.
Why always so attention seeking.
When will you stop acting like that.

There is a limit to my tolerance for your foolish nonsense!
Its mind torturing...
I'm stressed! I feel restless! And i am tired all because of your nonsense..